hello internet.
i know i haven't posted anything in a while -- three months actually --but with college and everything going on in my life i've been a bit busy. and you can judge me all you want like i know you will people that's just how people are. we judge others whether we're aware of it or not.
but anyway let's just get into it.
as a wanna-be-writer i make up stories in my head all the time. hell sometimes i'm even able to get them down on paper -- real and virtual. and it seems my brain has locked target on the romance genre of the fiction world so you can assume i've thought/written a couple love scenes. whether you guys think its just a simple kiss or a steamy sex scene is up to you -- but come on i know where your minds are gonna go -- its part of the romance genre. and i feel pretty proud of the scenes i've created. i know it's better than the twilight love story for sure.
but, if i wanna be a romance writer then i should have some pretty romantic experiences myself shouldn't i?
well to tell the truth i haven't. throughout my whole life so far i've never had a boyfriend or some guy even try to flirt with me. makes me feel so great when i watch all my friends get boyfriend after boyfriend. can you say low self-confidence and low self-esteem? i mean i have had my first kiss but it was in a hot tube with my cousin, sister, and some of my cousin's friends. we were playing truth or dare. i'm pretty sure you can figure it out from there.
any idea of romance i've gathered from movies, television shows, the internet (specifically youtube videos), and books.
but now here at college that's gonna change. my friend elliott is setting me up with on of his friends. it was elliott who first asked me if i was single or not which made me think he was gonna ask me out but i'm perfectly fine with one of his friends. it was pretty funny how he asked.
"so you wear glasses."
"yep."
"this is gonna sound weird but are you single?"
yep pretty funny. or at least i thought so.
but anyway. i'm pretty nervous about meeting up with this friend. i mean elliott is an upperclassmen so his friend most likely be one too while i'm just a freshman with no experience in the romance department. i've wanted a boyfriend since...okay i'm gonna be frank, preschool -- i never really was in that whole boys are gross stage -- but i'm scared that i might make a fool of myself. i'm a very shy person and i'm surprised that i had even made friends with elliott. talking to guys just really isn't my thing. i get all embarrassed and shy and flustered.
i...i don't know what to do.
the meeting's gonna be on a monday, tuesday, or thrusday. elliott has to tell me more. but right now i think i just wanna skip this week and go straight home for the weekend.
well internet, tell me about your relationship experiences. i don't care what it is just tell me something. maybe it can help me.
but for now that's it. end of draft.