i strive hard to be the girl who's just likable and quite and doesn't cause any trouble at all so when i saw this comment
"the alyxes and caseys and lauras of the world will eventually grow the heck up"
my confidence shot straight down and then even more when another person agreed. so i decided that instead of wallowing in a puddled of pity i would tell my side of the story.
first dealing with the fact that i'm floating more towards casey and alyx. i have no problems with any of my friends and i wish that we could all just get along but with all my friends fighting it's a little hard. the reason why i drift more towards those two is because we have a lot of the same interests and that i have spent the most time with those two. i feel bad for ignoring my other friends but when your in the middle of a fight it's pretty hard not to.
second is dealing with me deciding not to go to prom. one day i was sitting in the waiting area of my new eye doctor with my mother and was thinking about prom. the more i thought about it the more i didn't wanna go. i told my mom and she told me that she supported my decision. and even though i had a dress i didn't have to go. so when i told my friends alyx and casey invited me to hang out with them the day of prom and i accepted, knowing that it would be more fun than sitting at home the day of prom. and when of course steph found out that i did have a dress she asked me why i still wasn't going. when i told her that i rather not spend anymore money on something i didn't want to go to she said "but what's 50 more dollars?" thinking back on it now she probably thought that i just needed the ticket but in reality my dress still needed alteration, i needed jewelry, and i would have to go get my hair and nails done. so in the end it would cost more money than what i paid for for the dress to just go to prom. so yes i was not baited by my friends to not go, it just didn't feel right to me.
so there's my explanation. i know i deals with a lot of someone else's blog but i just wanted to say something in my defense. sorry if this was a bit boring and ranty. i should throw in something fun and random at the end for a treat for those who read this all. well here you go.
first dealing with the fact that i'm floating more towards casey and alyx. i have no problems with any of my friends and i wish that we could all just get along but with all my friends fighting it's a little hard. the reason why i drift more towards those two is because we have a lot of the same interests and that i have spent the most time with those two. i feel bad for ignoring my other friends but when your in the middle of a fight it's pretty hard not to.
second is dealing with me deciding not to go to prom. one day i was sitting in the waiting area of my new eye doctor with my mother and was thinking about prom. the more i thought about it the more i didn't wanna go. i told my mom and she told me that she supported my decision. and even though i had a dress i didn't have to go. so when i told my friends alyx and casey invited me to hang out with them the day of prom and i accepted, knowing that it would be more fun than sitting at home the day of prom. and when of course steph found out that i did have a dress she asked me why i still wasn't going. when i told her that i rather not spend anymore money on something i didn't want to go to she said "but what's 50 more dollars?" thinking back on it now she probably thought that i just needed the ticket but in reality my dress still needed alteration, i needed jewelry, and i would have to go get my hair and nails done. so in the end it would cost more money than what i paid for for the dress to just go to prom. so yes i was not baited by my friends to not go, it just didn't feel right to me.
so there's my explanation. i know i deals with a lot of someone else's blog but i just wanted to say something in my defense. sorry if this was a bit boring and ranty. i should throw in something fun and random at the end for a treat for those who read this all. well here you go.