thinking of you

why is it that i keep thinking about you? why because of a few dreams i can't get you out of my head? why can't i stop thinking about you now even though i've known you for over a year? why do i keep daydreaming of us together? of calming days and steamy nights? of you rescuing me from things i don't know about? of us holding each other in comfort and love? of tender kisses of love and wanting? why?

maybe it's because i like you. i don't know why i didn't start thinking of you a year ago. is it because i've just now noticed how attractive you are? but that can't be it. you've always been attractive. and there was no other guy in my mind when we met. so maybe it's because i've finally noticed the way you laugh. all your jokes. your funny sarcastic remarks. how you're happy your friends with my best friends even though they annoy you at times. how hauntingly beautiful your voice is when you sing. perhaps that's the reason why i keep thinking about you.

but i shouldn't be. i'm in dangerous territory. crushing on the same guy my friends happen to like. and besides it's not like you notice me much. i'm just the girl there when you're talking to one of them. listening and smiling at the things you say. recently i've been joining in on the conversations and you seem to be accepting them by actually talking back. but will you be accepting to the fact that i'm thinking of you? and will my friends be also as accepting?